i've noticed that these few days, im always home alone . father went out as penormal . and i only rot at home . haix .. wanted to go to aunty hse , as my grandma was alone there cause my aunty slept over her husband's aunty's house or whatver it is . but skali, brother accompanied my grandma liao . what a nice and lovely brother i have ? haha, Okayy, mepek .
so, yesterday, i didn't update my blog as i do not know what should i update about . hmm . tmr, i gt soccer tournament bebeh ! vs Greenview Sec . waa, i so miss the sch aunty malay stall punye chicken rice and mee soto ! nice bodo ! delicious, yummy ! yummy ! and next Sat, i will be coming down to Esp ! Okayy, best :D
yesterday, i've told Kid everything . we talk things out . haix .. i really felt so bad , i just don't know why . he's lazy to fight with me . like as if i want to fight with him gtu .. aiyoi ..now, i felt like i've lost my bestest friend ever, the precious thing that i ever had . but i just don't want him or either his friends to mistook me . mcm i bastard him gtu, i swear i didn't intend to bastard him or whatver it is la ek . now, we're not close anymore . i seriously felt lonely . but what to do, what to do . this is life . im really immatured enough to settle things on my own . once if i felt guilty, i'll felt guilty for the rest of my life . people may see im being happy, but deep down inside, there's still the guilt in me . i won't stop feeling guilty until i found a solution for it or i've settle the things, seriously . people whom have been close to me, maybe they'll won't even know how i felt about this matter . but KIKI, im sure she understands me although now we're not that close(: other than my friends, don't even want to care about me, don't even want to try to understand me . im always there for them, bt when i need them, they're not there . nie ke name nye kawan ! gi mampos la ! g mampos la !
and now, problems around . me and some other friends, is being a middle person . we do not know who should we follow as we do not know, who is right, and who is wrong . and now, some of us, are being separated for this matter . even my girlfriend is not with me cause she fights with Adilah or Sara . can't remember . aiyoi .. it really makes me like wanna kill them .
