Tuesday, April 22, 2008
{ 5:38 PM }
came back from school pretty early today . all because of my father, hmpf ! there's abit of misunderstanding here, but he scolded me like as if im still a young child
gtu ek . im big enough la eh . its only a small matter but we qaurrelled like as if its a very big mistake i've made, wtf eh .. he scolded cause he said i didn't do all the things i've supposed to do when he was away . and the birds all, i have to bathe them and yes, i did okayy . it took me almost more than one hours plus, but he doesn't knows that . haix .
he really made my life fucked up this way, i hate it okayy . he simply just don't understands me, he don't even want to try to understand . i hate having father like this, he even called me some sort of i don't know how to translate in eng,
anak sundal , and tell me, which child doesn't get hurts when his or her parents call them that ? he simply doesn't use his brains before he says anything . at least what i said to him just now is all the fact ek, although im really rude to him . but i can't control my anger, i had enough of this things kept on repeating itself . it really hurts me alot okayy .
he doesn't know that i have been through alot of grief on my own . he doesn't even asked anything about my school and all stuff, if i have a problem and all . i would be really such a good girl if he were to treat me that way . if he tries to understand me, im sure this things wouldn't happen at all . and i woudn't give him alot of problems like i used to . but now, i felt like i as if im all alone, like i have no families, or maybe just a father . i prefer staying own my own, i felt more peace and calm when he isn't around, even when he was away for these few days lately, i felt so free and happy . and i've realised i only can find my happiness when im with my friends and Boyf, they never fail to made my day at all . (:
well, enough of that now . i really sick and tired of this things kept on repeating itself .
school today was fine . gotten back my Geo test paper, and i passed :D and Ms Low said that this year, im the most attentive student in her class and im the one whom improved alot . YAYness, and thats a good news for me, at least im not getting from bad to worst aye ? haha .
today also there's many free period for my class as Ms Tan is not present, same as Mdm Chiong . and its fun, haha . tmr there will be free period again, best !
mira kecik(sec 1), she texted me saying, oh ya, wait. she say in malay of course, but i translate okayy ? haha, she said : " sis, do you love me ? now i've seen that you've been very close to Fyy . you've got new sister, forget about the old one . as i've said before that im jealous when you were with Fyy, but you don't understand . even your problem, i don't even know . i want to know cause i wanna help you, bacause i care for you . last time, you've said that you treated me like im your biological sister, but now, what has happen ? im not blaming you, but please think about it . you're really my beloved sister, and im scared that i've lose you, i hope you can understand me . i've always seen you been snetch from other people . i don't care if you wanna have a new sis, but why must you be with them only ? sis, i know you're stress, im really sorry . "
aaawwww, how sweet of her ? but yeaa, i really have no comment about this, she everytime said all this kind of stuff . well, i understand how she feels and now im not pretty close to her . but does she understand me at the first place ? she's forcing me to tell her whats my problem and all . and i hate it that way, i don't like people to force me, like wtf eh . if i want to tell, i'll tell . if i just don't feel like telling, then i'll shut up, so do you . im not being very mean here, but im just saying what im thinking . sorry for eveyrthing . although im quite close to the others sec one's people, but not you, at least im always there for you, and you also did talked to me at times, even during soccer, i've seen that you had alot of time with me, isn't that enough girl ? stay happy, yaw. :D
bye lovelies,
CHALOBETEHH !
&& i miss my MSJ
came back from school pretty early today . all because of my father, hmpf ! there's abit of misunderstanding here, but he scolded me like as if im still a young child gtu ek . im big enough la eh . its only a small matter but we qaurrelled like as if its a very big mistake i've made, wtf eh .. he scolded cause he said i didn't do all the things i've supposed to do when he was away . and the birds all, i have to bathe them and yes, i did okayy . it took me almost more than one hours plus, but he doesn't knows that . haix .