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Sunday, May 25, 2008 { 4:05 PM }

im over at my mother's house right now . and i found this picture in her laptop, cause my bro took it the other day, so i decided to post it up here . and im here because i ran away from home . hmpf ! my father scolded me for just a small matter, mcm fxck sial . i seriously cnnt take it, he doesn't know how much have i hurt . why can't just he stop making me suffer ?! why ?! haix . i left when he was in the toilet, my grandma was shouting and shouting to stop me and father came out to chase me but too bad he didn't mananged to .

and now probably he might me finding for me or report to the police . i don't even care . IF he were to report to the police, i can easily say that this was a child abuse . so what if it isn't the kind of child abuse, in this case he is still wrong . he made me like a animal or what ? hergh !

first he scolded me because he said i stole his money cause just now his money flew away and i help him to picked it up and some cash were missing and he accused me of stealing it , sial peh bapak . second, he asked me to bathe his birds eventually i didn't cause i did not heard what he asked me to do and he scolded me mcm fxck . just because of that he scolded me, hmpf ! and he even said im death or what ?! third, he asked me to vacumm the house and i did when he was sleeping, and after he woke up he started shouting and scolding me saying i make the house so dusty and i didn't clean it . fourth, i didn't help him to clean the woredrobe because my step mother might be moving in to my house . fifth, when he was actually browsing through a folder, he found my pic with Boyf and then he started pushing me and i fell . my back hurts, he asked me alot of question which i didn't answered . he asked me to wait cause he went to the toilet and that's when i ran away and he tried to stop me but can't .

now, im really all stressed up . there's loads and loads and loads of things in my mind right now . im utterly confused with what im doing right now is right or wrong . cause this is the second time that i ran away . i told my mother the whole story of what he have done to me all this while, she cried hearing it and i cried too . she advices me and stuff . she said, if my father were to find out im over at her house, they might think that she phyco me to come over and they blame my mother for it . hmm . she tried to convinced me and persue me to went home . which im so stubborn not to listen to whatever she says . at last, i felt so pity for her . she's the bestest mother, so i wouldn't want her to be upset and disappointed, so i'll be going home later . mother will be sending me home .

to boyf : you don't worry Okehh, im fine . and sorry if you were disappointed . haix .. too bad i can't contact you when im in this kind of situation . i asked my bro to top up kan for me, beh dyr ckp tk lehh, so its Okehh . but you don't think much, im just fine . ILY (: