Friday, November 13, 2009
{ 8:31 PM }
Idk who have edited my bloody blog. Th timing just seems to be wrong, will try to correct it again.
God, please give me some strength to go through everything .Im super upset today . Friday th 13th , what a fcuking suay day for me ): Had some arguments with my dad. He made me cry like fcuk til my eyes are now swollen . Better be okay by tmr, cause Im going out ! Grrrr !
Friends are having so much fun right now while Im home rotting , haish ! I have to give it a missed ): Thanks to my bloody moodswing and dad . I regret for reaching home late yesterday, if not I could ton together with Boyf and friends . Tsk ! Tried so much ways to made him changed his mind, but didnt manage to . Ended up, turn out to be a fight . I was so stressed up and pissed off, then I decided to head down to Mount Faber to chill .
Firstly, why cant my dad just understand what I want ? Why cant just he go with th flow of my needs ? Why cant he appreciate me ? Why cant he be grateful to have me ? Why cant he read me ? Why cant he learn to be in my shoes ? Why cant he understand my situation ? Sigh .
My heart really dropped thinking of all this. I cried my hearts out til there's no tears rolling down my cheek. Thinking of all that, my anger towards him grew even stonger . Yet it reminds me of my mum. Though its been years that Ive separated with her , though th love aint feeling th same no more , I do still remember th things that she teaches me when I was still a kid. To be patient and always give in. I was grown up with patience , a simple word of
S O R R Y can settle so much things .
I know Im being rude if I said my dad is not a responsible father, but its true . He think of himself, not me . Uses up all my cash when he knows I need that money to support myself. I wouldnt make it a big fuss if he still could work and support me with what I need . In this case, he dont give me allowance even a cent every month. Maybe he did, a little if I asked. He doesnt know how much effort Ive to put in to get money for myself . Ended up, he spend it all , my effort just roll down th drain. Isnt it weird ? Its like, Im th one who supporting him . Grrrr ! Its okay, patience Mira !
Haish ! Not even a person will come up to me and asked if Im alright. No one has spare me thier listening ears ): You'll see me smiling, laughing away but deep down Im hurt, really hurt. At times I thought, why must I lead life this way ? I just cant believe that I have to face the fact that Im suffering for already 7 years eversince my parents divorce . Thankfully , I had my company to make my day lively .
Idk why Bby smile like that ? Haha. Our first monthsary just passed 3 days ago . For th one month , he really convince me that we're meant to be . Im glad he said, our love is strong . Awww, love you Bby :D
Oh Tuhan ku cinta die
Berikan lah aku hidup
Takkan ku sakiti die
Hukum aku bila terjadi
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Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan
Aku jatuh cinta
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Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakan ku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta Sumpah ku cinta
Sampai ku menutup mata
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I felt really bad for ending my soccer career, I must have disappoint my girls . Im so sorry ! I just couldnt cope anymore. Again, I apologised . Hmm
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Holidays are here, I tend to sleep late cause I just cant get myself into bed. Like 3am then I'll fall asleep . Idk why. Oh , I have to catch up with many people. Especially Zaqia , Nuril and Ain . Been wanting to meet you girls ! Not to forget Izah Love and my Yew Tee clan too (:
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Leaving in 8 days time ):
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Yours sincerely with love;
Miraaa babe.
Idk who have edited my bloody blog. Th timing just seems to be wrong, will try to correct it again.
Idk why Bby smile like that ? Haha. Our first monthsary just passed 3 days ago . For th one month , he really convince me that we're meant to be . Im glad he said, our love is strong . Awww, love you Bby :D